I read something recently that started with this….“If you haven’t been laid off already, you are probably working twice as hard.” It’s not a very positive statement, but it sounds partly true to what I’m seeing around lately. You don’t have to look hard at all to find tons of articles online, tv, magazines, news papers, about the the current state of the economy and how it’s all going down. I’m not going to deny it, yes, things are pretty bad right now, it IS the current state, it is the Now we are living in. However…

Why should I allow myself to plunge down into the destructive spiral? Why should I allow my sanity, my thoughts to be completely invaded by all this, quickly placing my ability to continue in a positive direction in a complete freeze? One thing is, admitting the state of things in the Now we are living, and another is, allowing that to become the future as well. I can’t allow my mind, my thoughts, my desires, my energy to focus on Now, when Now is not what I want for me. I have to continue to work on my thoughts, and on my focus on what I WANT my life to be. That is the only way I will get THERE.

As a former colleague recently wrote in her LinkedIn status, I am a recent casualty of the economy. So I’ve been home for the past two weeks or so, doing many things: updating my portfolio, browsing job postings and applying here and there, keeping the recruiters updated, going on the Unemployment Insurance website, and of course I’ve been doing other things like watching anime, checking out some Flash video training for myself (I will get better at it!), and working on my Japanese Lessons.

Of course being at home, I’m saving all that money I  used to spend on lunch while at work and that is great. Also, I’ve become an addict of HGTV. I call it my training for buying my first home. I’m also cooking dinner more which I really like doing, and no I am not cleaning more. That’s not a job that I do on my own so I’m not going to turn my mini vacation at home into a cleaning binge. Another thing which  is a bit of a side effect of watching too much HGTV is, the decorating/organizing/re-arranging obsession. I kinda keep looking for little projects to do, lol, and my first one was to find a nice frosted film to place on the living room windows, so that I can have all the light coming in but still keep it private. I found a really nice on on eBay for a nice price. So I’ll cover the bottom half of the windows with it, and then I can take out the dark curtains and enjoy the light.

Yup, mini vacation is going well after all.

ヤね

~L